"I didn't sleep very well that night. I was so stressed thinking about our talk. Rob was curled around me and holding me tight. Tears ran down my cheeks as I thought about what our future would be like. He would hate me.
I maneuvered out of his grasp and made my way to the bathroom. The clock on my phone read 2am and showed that I had a missed text....from Jake, of course.
Taking a big deep breath, I opened the text.
Just wanted to say I love you and I'm
glad you're back. Sleep well, Doll. :)
I wanted to be frustrated with his hovering, but he was being sweet and truthfully, the text made me smile. I knew he worried about me and the baby. He wants so badly for everything to be okay. I wanted to tell him it would be, but I couldn't. The affair was bad enough, but now a child was involved.
As I climbed back in bed, Rob circled his body around mine. I could feel his excitement behind me. The corner of my mouth turned up in a slight grin....men....they are all the same.
He nuzzled behind my ear and said, "I missed you! I need you, babe." I couldn't deny him. I felt a deep sadness in my soul thinking about how much I would miss him loving me this way. I turned into him and kissed him with all my heart, well, as much of it as I had left. He was immediately awake and taking me fully. We made beautiful love there in the middle of the night. It was glorious.
I woke up late the next morning. Panicked, I looked over at the clock where a note was clearly visible for me.
I wanted you to get your rest. Sorry to disturb your sleep last night, but it was so wonderful to have you back home in my arms. Everyone is dressed and where they need to be. Rest today.
See you tonight.
I hated myself."